La Belle Dame Sans RegretsAlways dreamt of living in those towns you see in the movies, where the dust swirls in slow faded motion, where lonely lampposts whisper words to one another. People walk about hurriedly, hustling in their coats pulled tight around them, and a sudden chill sweeps the town. And this town, in the middle of nowhere, stands alongside a jetty which gazes out to sea. I'll take that lonely walk down the dusty streets; beckon to the lampposts my silent acknowledgment. Then I'll sit at the edge of the wooden pier, legs dangling, and fall asleep amidst the sounds of sonata waves.
While my country fights valiantly against Thailand, and a goal up, I sit here in front of the computer screen. Resonances of jazz fill the room, bringing about a mysterious romance to the place. Much as I want to follow the match, I haven't felt this sort of emotions for a long, long time. Not those days thrash-filled with angst, no no. This time, it's something special. Something warm.. beyond reason.
If ever you gently tap me by the shoulders, and I look into those eyes of yours, I swear I'll never let you go. The seabirds sweeping over the seas shall be our witnesses, and the lapping of waves, our voices.
I'd probably go join the rest of 'em for P.E tomorrow. If the weather were as fine as the previous days, wind ruffling our hair constantly, it'd be good to go for a run to take my mind off things. Very soon, I'll swing the closet doors open and let the little things that pile up at the back of my head loose. I'll pick up the pieces one by one. It isn't gonna do me much good if one day, I get swallowed up by my reluctance to clear up the dark clandestine secrets I struggle to hide.
Hah. Ian, you emo-kid. I'm so ashamed of you.
How long must we keep riding on a carousel,
Going round and round,
And never getting anywhere.
The past days are growing increasingly fun, especially in school. I know I've said it once, and I'll say it again. I really adore my class, from my lovely chairman Shikin to the torturous Ethel who never fails to make my day hyped up, from the freaky Malory who's actually really friendly in nature to the pretty Cheryl many guys go crazy over, from the ever so funny Wenjun to my four years buddy Eugene. The different personalities clashes added spice to the dull life I foretold and to tell the truth, I'm wishing days pass by more slowly now. (:
Almost half of the class headed to the Kallang Stadium on Saturday evening to cheer on the Singapore team on home turf. You have to be there to really experience the many highs of my first ever live soccer match. ( although this is the complete opposite of the one I always dream of in Old Trafford ) Wenjun, Little Monkey from M.I and an oversized guy from the group of Malays beside us derived joy from insulting the Malaysian team and the tiny sector of Malaysians supporters at the side of the stadium. I, for one, was laughing my head off at the many creative insults they came up with. It's a pity Malaysia scored first but something cracked me up badly during Singapore jeers at the Malaysians, courtesy of a scrappy goal they scored. This large sized Malay woman, with her little boy by her side, leapt up in fury and pointed a middle finger salute to the opposing fans, at the same time, screaming incomprehensible words I found hard to catch. I really didn't know Singaporeans were so passionate about our home team, haha. Then there was the all too familiar beat that was followed by an insult. One of the highlights of the evening came when Singapore equalised. The whole stadium erupted, I tell you. You should have seen the people jumping for joy. And more was to come when Lionel Lewis saved the fifth penalty. I hadn't felt more anxiety and joy in the short span of four hours before. In conclusion, Singapore kicked some ass on Saturday night, and 07A2 left with spirits high, memorable photos capturing a magical night, and yet another historic Singapore win.
This paragraph here is to thank Nisa for the cookies she made for me! Although it was all devoured before you can say ' delicious ', it was really sweet of you to bake those cookies for us! Thank you, and we'll go cycling soon! All seven of us. :D
This is to the world:
I love being tortured by Ethel Choy during Chinese lessons.
Ethel Choy is the best.
Long live Ethel Choy.
P.S I'm typing this with a gun pointed at my head.
P.P.S Ethel doesn't know the trick behind the fingers game. :D
29th of January - A VIP friend of mine made my day. Even though it was just to fix a little something, and we talked for just a little while, every little things add up to script themselves on our VIP friendship book of memories! So therefore, I'd like to express how much I treasure this VIP friend and that she gets well really, really soon! (:
This is the long goodbye. Alright, I'm pretty much done in here. I'mma grab some shuteye now.
Replies to tags:Jenny: Haha, yesyes. I saw you today!Yvonee: Nooo. I'm a happy boy who think of happy stuff! (:Ethel: Am not! You're the emo girl! Haha yes, 07A2'd be kinda weird without you.Jacqueline: Your wish is my command. Linked! (:Anna: That's another Anna, my cell group leader!Nisa: Yummy cookies, Ian says thank you to Nisa!Atiqah: Hello Atiqah! I hope you aren't sad anymore!Charmaine: Hello, thank you! Oh yes. But there's always next week!
07A2!I was probably half awake when I blogged yesterday. I presume I'm currently in a similar state. So I decided to edit yesterday's post with a simple thought in my head.
I <3 07A2 plenty! (:
From the bottom of my heart.Replies to tags:
Anna: HELLO YOU. (:
Charmaine: I'm just glad the posts didn't bore you to death! Haha, YOU take care too. (:
Jenny: Haha hey, I updated. Anyway, OG outing was fun!
Jacqueline: And mine's 2408972150892457 + a few more days after you! Haha, hello there, keeper of the beautiful smiles. (:
Nisa: I don't! And stop cracking me up in school, hahaha!
Beitris: Thank you for coming! (: Haha, we HAVE to meet up one day. Study in Coffee Beans & Tea Leaves again or something!
Yvonee: Hello, happy happy happy!
When everything feels like the movies,Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.This would officially be the anthem of my year 2thousand7.
Halfway through the month, and life seems to open up a landing space for me. A refreshing change for once, things haven't been the usual moody blues that splatter across the memories of previous months. Not that everything is perfect at the moment but interestingly, I've enough in me to keep on going in an otherwise fair and smooth sailing month of January.
ACJC's very much different to MI, but even so, I greatly enjoyed the days spent in both schools. To be honest, from all the opinions you gather, nothing's more accurate than personally tasting the school itself in its flavor. I made plenty of friends the past few days, and even though fade out, wash out, is inevitable, I had some enjoyable times with the acquaintances/friends I've known these days. And I'm thankful for the short period of time which I get to reminisce the good 'ol primary school days with some good 'ol friends. (:
To lie in a bed of roses is a wonderful feeling.
I don't wanna get up, ever.
I've been talking to quite a number of people online these days, but there are a few conversations that really made my days. I haven't had such cheerful chats in months, maybe because some people have changed/are changing and getting on with life on their own while others have moved in to take their places. And maybe because I'm a little slow, I didn't realise such nice people exist in my life. (:
When everything's made to be broken,I just want you to know who I am.WE WILL GO RUNNING TOGETHER ONE DAY.
Haha, I shan't be pessimistic this time. I hope the cars that just filled up the empty parking lots of my heart remain there for a long, long time. May all gas tanks be empty and tyres, punctured. :D
Happy Birthday, Hantian.Yeah, he probably won't see this and even if he does, it'd take years for him to understand how a big brother feels. Haha, I guess guys are damn strange from the start. Like how your dad loves you but never does shows it out, and even if he does, he'd act all tough and turn away. Maybe being a big brother's pretty much the same too, I do love my brothers despite them bickering non-stop, but to say or act out how I feel just isn't.. the type of things us guys would do.
And
Happy Belated Birthday, Anna.I've no inspiration to blog now, and my body's crumbling to pieces following some tiring days. But I'll come back soon, I promise. Cause I love writing/blogging, and I do realise few ever visit this blog but still, I heart my blog plenty. (:
Sometimes I laugh at our own obscurity. Of humans' uncanny ability to sink from the sanity to the insane, and of gestures and actions worthy to be labeled reprehensible.
Truth is, we're made up of fragments of deception and mendacity. Impenetrable, the clock frightfully ticks and the world spins without heed in awaiting self-destruction.Ian, Tan
Insight upon Dawn
2.13 A.M, 14th January 07'
And laughter is my soul release,But we're not smiling anymore.I hope I do get my pay this week. My gut feeling says 240 worth of cold hard cash but I'll be more than happy to get more. I've got my eyes on a new Nike bag and a pair of Converse sneakers. There's a new Nike bag out not too long ago and I kind of think it's okay. But now that I see almost ten of such bags around each passing day, it'd grown rather distasteful. Now I secretly hope everyone buys the new one and throw away the old ones. Then I'll be the only one with the old Nike design. :D
a Breath of New Life & a Shot to the Head.A new school brought about a sinking feeling in my stomach on the first day of school, a little optimism on the second, and ended a little better then I had expected on the finale. I guess being who I am, I should be glad with the few friends I made here and there which would most probably end up being hi-bye friends in the near future. Haha, I'm afraid I've created a very bad impression for myself, skipping almost a day's worth of school hours, crashing in on other clans, as well as getting sent home for long hair today. But I must voiced out that I made more than the usual effort I'd normally make to talk to as much people in my clan as possible. But.. I doubt anyone would still be able to recognise me on Monday. Mi wasn't that bad, considering its rumored reputations, and at least, my group has the coolest name, Kyra, and the best OGL, Farisha. So 3 days in Kyra 2 helped me settle a little, but like many others, moving on in 6 weeks time is just a matter of time.
I should say that I'm very proud of Kyra 2, and I apologise for my almost zilch contribution to the group. Not that anyone from my orientation group would ever come across this, (as I wander away on most occasions) but for memory's sake, I think if given a choice, I would choose Kyra 2 and start all over again. (:
See, I'm an emotional person, but save the tears for another day.
A little nagging thought crosses my mind now and then. Seeing how some of my friends from other schools settling in their respective JCs all too comfortably, I keep thinking of how many things would change in 2007. I do hope the little doors left open would not dwindle yet again. But fact is, some would leave just that little peak open, while others.. shut completely. I hope that I'm wrong though. New year resolution #1: Be a happy boy that hopes; be it high or low.
Even if it means lying to myself.
I'm a happy boy, as of now, 5th January 2007.
Three cheers for Kyra 2, and my very nice, short and soft spoken OGL, Farisha. (:
Replies to tags ( sorry for my being late ) :
Fel: Hey! It's Black Balloon by the Goo Goo Dolls. (:
Jialin: Of course I do remember you! My ' sister ' and we still have a coffee date! (:
Angeline: Haha, not really. They're written in the heart language, you need to use your heart to feel them! Okay, I'm kidding. I don't know that you ever come here!
Elana: Hey there, artist-to-be! Thanks for the drawing ( it's really beautiful ) and the food you brought over on Thursday!
Jacqueline: Hello youuu. (:
Charmaine: Hey! Haha, I apologise that my tag board has caused you problems with its very stubborn black boxes. I'll fix it soon!
Evangeline: Haha, understand what? If it's the recent post, I think only a few do. But anyway, it's nothing big!
